All About Me n U n They also....

Well... sbnrnya gw no comment dgn ini smua.. Baru semalem gw dgrin curhatannya spupu gw.. Ceritanya mereka tmnan berlima... dah klop siyhh meskipun kt spupu gw diantara mrk suka ada gap2an.. tapi slama mrk bs kompak dlm hal pertemanan y why not slg memaafkan.. hahaha gw blg aja "bagus jg lebaran tiap hr".. spupu gw pun cmn bs ikut ktawa.. Trs dia mulai ngelanjutin curhatannya ma gw.. Awalnya mrk biasa dgn situasi gap2an gt tp lama klamaan ko malah makin bikin dinding diantara 1 sama lainnya dan lebih terkesan mereka itu munafik!! hmm..susah jg kan bwt gw meng-comment smua itu.. Ko bisa y mereka tahan berteman dgn cara spt itu.. dalam dunia kerja siy gw pasti akan mengerti lah klo terjadi hal kemunafikan,,msg2 pny keinginan u/lbh maju.. tapi klo emg 'pure' pertemanan kynya males bgt y!! Gw blg k spupu gw "makanya klo nyari sobat itu jgn byk2, yg 1 org aja qta blm tau dlmnya gmn apalg yg bykan.." trs spupu gw mangut2 aja..  karena menurut gw semakin byk org semakin byk kemauan,makin susah u/nyatuin.. klo tmn just 4 fun doang si hayu aja tp klo bnr2 maw jd soulmate mpe sgala sesuatu diceritain kynya qta hrs bnr2 milih.. bukan berarti qta pilih2 y.. tp untuk bersahabat si itu ptg ko.. akhirnya spupu gw crita smua keluh kesahnya dia bersama genknya itu yg berlima,ada senengnya,ada dukanya meskipun itu smua terselimuti oleh kemunafikan.... smua hanya kedok klo menurut gw.. memang susah cari sahabat sejati.. Setelah spupu gw mengeluarkan unek2nya, gw cmn bs berkata "ya udalah g usah ambil pusing,klo pun tmn qta pny niat buruk ato pny pikiran buruk kan yg dosa dia sndr,qta mah pahala..insyaalah.. trust no one aja.. meskipun dgn sahabat qta sendiri,g smua hrs qta ceritain..tar aja pas qta shalat ceritain smua k yg diatas,rsnya lebih masuk akal n ngefek krn dunia ini berputar,dan yg memutar hanya yg diatas.." Dan spupu gw pun malah balik nanya " knp ko qmu bs ngomong gt?" Lalu gw jawab dgn pasti "karna gw pernah merasakan hal yg spt itu.."

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry. 
break down and cry.

*For my luvly FILINO... 110508 (hope it will come true ya my dear..hehehe ^_^)*

Jam 12 siang gw siap2 maw pgi k kntr krn hr ini gw msk siang... Gada yg nganterin k kntr... Kucluk-kucluk gw kluar rmh n nyegat angkot d depan... gw duduk d blkg sambil dgrin MP3. Ga lama kemudian ada cwo yg nyegat angkot yg gw naekin d daerah cihampelas (dkt Premiere), cwo itu bdua, ciri2nya: tinggi,kurus,kriting rmbtnya,bw tas. Kalo tmnnya sih gw g bgtu merhatiin soalnya yg kliatan bgt tuh yg si kriting itu.. G lama mereka naek eh ada yg nyegat jg cwo... Ntah knp perasaan gw makin g enak saat itu,dag-dig-dug g jelas!!! Tu cwo mulai mengeluarkan gelagat yg g enak,,mulai ngeliatin k pinggir2nya. Dah gt cwe dpn gw blg : "KIRI", sebelahnya jg n sebelahnya jg... hhhhuuuu gw makin parno! akhirnya gw jg blg :"KIRI" sembari deg-degan... Pas gw maw turun, gw ditahan ma cwo sikeriting itu,tmnnya megangin gw,, spontan gw meronta-ronta n sambil teriak : "Eeehhhhh" sambil ky banteng ngamuk gw berusah keluar dr angkot. Tapi tu angkot kaga berenti,setengah jalan,jd gw turun dr angkot yg lg jln pelan judulnya... bgtu turun cwe2 yg barengan turun sebelu gw nanya ma gw :"Itu kynya copet y mba,,serem. Mba td ditahan y? tapi gpp kan mba?" gw jawab :" Iya,tu komplotan copet kyknya,untung sy bs turun" muka gw pucet bin keringet dingin kali y saat itu. Langsung gw naek angkot laen (yg sebenernya bkn angkot itu yg gw hrs naek,tp gpp deh jln dikit yg ptg gw aman). Di dalem angkot gw coba nenangin diri gw sendiri sambil ngucap dlm hati:"Alhamdulillah ya Allah,gw selamet" Bgitu nyampe kntr gw lsg minum n tlp laki gw..dia khawatir bgt, secara ini pengalaman gw yg k 2X behub ma copet d angkot.. Muka gw kringetan,badan lumayan gemeteran... tp Alhamdulillah gw baik2 aja... Tampaknya u/beberapa hr ini gw aga nano pk angkot deh....

"Gw sayang dia,gw ga maw keilangan dia.. Apa yg musti gw perbuat?"

Itulah yg ada diotak gw tadi pagi sekitar jam 9an,,gw g maw smua ini berakhir hanya karena ego masing2. Gw dah ngerasa cocok bgt sm dia (meskipun ga dalam semua hal),tapi dia bisa ngebuat gw nyaman ada disamping dia (meskipun dia tergolong cowo yg ckp pasif u/ngungkapin perasaannya lewat kata2). Banyak hal yg udah qta lewatin brg slama ini, dia byk ngasih tau gw klo gw salah ataupun benar.. hikshiks tp knp qta suka beda pendapat bin brantem mulu sih??? Sempet terlintas dlm benak gw "Apa gw teh bkn jodoh gt ma dia?" secara kt tmn2 gw byk kejadian pasangan dah tinggal meri tp malah kandas ditengah-tengah. Duuuhhh jd nano gw,takut kedalam salah satu pasangan itu.. Bismillah deh jangan.. Meskipun gw ma dia suka brantem tp gw anggep itu adalah proses adaptasi antara gw n dia, karena gmnpun jg menikah itu kan seumur idup,tiap hr brg.. wwuuuaaahhh jd suka ngayal gw.. mmmm..... *sambil ngayal ini teh*

Akhirnya setelah adu mulut via SMS n tlp, gw ma dia baekan jg.. Tau g apa yg gw rasain setelah gw baekan? Gw ngerasain sayyaaanngg bgt ma dia,gw ga maw keilangan dia mpe kpnpun.. gw bakal ngejaga ini semua.. (meskipun suka nakal y hehehehehe)... M. Filino SP.. ga kerasa bentar lg lebaran,lamaran trs qta nikah deh...huhuy.... hehehehe.... *yah,ga bs lg deh ada acara ngewine brg tmn..oupssss....hehehehe*

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lay
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lay on my floor
And they smell just like you
i love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

Akhirnya y qta pgi jg b3,,,,hehehehe stelah sekian lama stuck di Bandung nan jenuh ma pekerjaan msg2.. Fiuuhhh... Pegi pagi jam 9 dr Bandung n mpe Jkt jam 12an gto,mn d mbl ac sempet g jalan n qta berebut udara hahahaha ky sauna y qta,,kringetan sambil ngedumel @!%@#$* hahahaha tp seru.. bgtu mpe htl qta check in trs ngagoler-goler dl br deh cabz k Senayan City, bgt nyampe qta lsg jaja alias jajablog bin mkn,gillaaa laper bgt,cmn mkn roti aja pas pgi d bawain chung. Bgtu nyampe salah satu tmpt mkn Jepang d SnanCi (qta nyebut Senayan City.red), qta lsg psn mkn n lsg mkn tanpa basa-basi... Dah slese mkn qta lsg k Zara (kt si Chang lg ada discount), gw pikir all item eh kaga taunya model lama yg discountnan teh berikut tank top smua Yyyuuuu.... brs dr Zara qta ngulibek dl k smua toko2 branded yg ada d mall itu,,,hmmm trs Chung nanya : "Eh,apa perasaan gw aja ato kalian ngerasa hal yg sama,,dingin y???" trs serempak qta jawab : "iyyaaaa,,,dingin bgt!!!" akhirnya setelah ktawa ngikik qta kluarlah dr Mall yg super duper dingin itu...Brrrgggghhhh....

Langsung qta lanjut k Plangi (Plaza Semanggi.red), dsana tampak anget dibanding SnanCi,lanjut lah qta ksana kmari dah gt aga sorean qta karaoke d Inul.. have fun bgt qta dsana, nyanyi teriak2, rocker aja kalah deh ma suara qta pdahal qta cmn b3 loh... tampak sekompi wekekekekek... Dsana qta janjian ma tmn msg2,kcuali Chung,,,hehehehe.. Dah 3 jam y kaga kerasa qta nyeng-nyong,,smua lagu dah d nyanyiin (hahaha) akhirnya qta plg dl k htl bwt gnti bj sambil nerusin k acara selanjutnya!!!

Dah gnti bj n dendong qta cabz k daerah Kemang, qta nge-wine d Vin+. Awalnya qta kedinginan...brrggghhh lebih2 dr SnanCi deh... Start qta mesen Wine, seteguk,dua teguk,tiga teguk,empat teguk,lima teguk,,,,kehangatan mulai kerasa.. Chung mulai noroweco wae wakakakakakakak... mpe ngakan gw klo inget!! Gw jg mulai heng ing eng siyh,secara qta sblmnya blm mkn (terakhir mkn siang). Jadi cepet bgt kan tuh naeknya... hahahaha... Tapi qta smua fun abbeessshhhh!!!! meskipun sesekali gw tampak ribeut dhn Hp yg trs2an begeter,,,my bunny!!! Tapi bsk mah bsk aja deh!! skrg gw kudu have fun (sebenernya pemikiran yg salah,,tp y gmn lg..kadedet seh hehehehe). Setelah abish smua, qta cabz dr Vin+ dgn heng ing eng nya qta,,,tp djln mendadak cenghar gr2 razia polisi hahahaha lsg jaim smua!! takut polisi y Bu???? hahahahaha... Nano huh!!

Aslinya qta have fun bgt shari itu.. seneng bgt.. g bs gw tulisin lewat kata2 deh... Luv u Chang-Chung... Always be bestfriend... ^_^

Every woman needs her man
To hold her and
Protect her and
Tell her that she's beautiful
And how she feels, he understands
A man that will not leave her but
Will stand right by her side.
So before you go, just know that
Every woman needs...her man.

Her man...her man.
Help me say..

Every woman needs her man
To fight for her
Die for her
Someone who will take the time
To place his heart
Inside of her
A man that's not afraid to say
"I'm sorry" when he's wrong.
So before you walk away
Just let me say,
That lady needs her man.

Her man. (x7)

So remember to
Tell her that you love her
And that you
Place no one above her
And remind her
What we have will last...always
Oh, and tell her
Meant to be together
and that I
I will leave you never
And I promise
to stay with you forever
until my dying day
Oh

Every woman needs a man
Who'll be true
Who will say I do
Even when the skies are grey
He knows that God
Will bring them though.
A man who understands that love
It don't come everyday.
So before you go just know that
Every woman needs her man

Tell her that you love her
And that you
place no one above her
and remind her
what we have will last always
Always oh and tell her
Meant to be together
And tell her
I will leave you never
And I promise to
stay with you forever
until my dying day

So before you go just know
That every woman needs
So before you walk away,
Just let me say that lady needs
So before you go just know
That every woman needs her man.

*bwt cwo2 yg emang jrang ato mungkin g png care ma cwenya!! dgrin trs bc deh.. hehehehehe*

Sometimes we wish for the better.. When we have it good as it gets.. Sometimes the grass isn't greener.. Sometimes we find out we forget.. Sometimes the fool doesn't know he's a fool.. Sometimes a dog he don't know he's a dog.. Sometimes I do stupid things to you.. When I really don't mean it all.. Sometimes a woman Is gon' be a woman.. It's not an excuse.. It's just how it is.. Sometimes the wrong.. Don't know that they're wrong.. Sometimes the strong.. Ain't always so strong.. Sometimes a man Is gon' be a man.. he don't wanna deal with all the drama in your world.. God knows I don't mean to give it to you.. So man I'm sorry for the stupid things I wish I didn't do but I do..

Sometimes I wish I was smarter.. Wish I was a bit more like you.. Not making stupid decisions made at the last minute.. You live to regret when it's through..


--> Dearest my Filino.. Maafin aku y sayang... Luv U.. ~_~

Kumencintaimu lebih dari apapun
meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tau
kumencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
yang kucari s’lama ini dalam hidupku
dan hanya padamu kuberikan sisa cintaku
yang panjang dalam hidupku.... "meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku "

-->bwt cewe2 yg lg pada kecantol ma selingkuhan ato emng doyann eemmmm.... *oupss gw g menyebutkan nama logh....*

Duuuuhhhh hari ini engga bgt deh gw!!!! asa teu pararuguh geneh. G enak gerak,g enak nafas,g enak mkn,g enak minum,g enak segalanya deh... gtaw knp,,apa mgkn krn hati gw yg sdg gundah gulana tak tau kemana n mengapa kali yaaaaa... Huhhhh,,,,apa gr2 my luvly No kali,,,nyebelin,mentingin org laen dibanding gw! Rekanan sih rekanan tp ko ky pcran!! bbbrrrrggghhhhh.... >=(

 Gw pikir,cmn gw aja yg ngerasa ky gni, eh tapi ternyata sobat2 gw jg ngerasain hal yg sama.. Chang (Susan)  n Chung (Mba Nova),,qta betiga cengo d VIP room (blkng office.red) smbil ngududz n learning by melong aja gt smuanya.. Bawaannya buete surethe kethe dewwhhhh... Sambil ngudz jd kebayang hal2 yg bikin gw tambah bete!! G taw knp ko gw jd gne y,,,terbawa ama situasi kondisi yg disisi halllaaahhhh apaan seh??? Pgn pgi jaoooohhhh,,yyyyaaaahhhh g jd k Lombok gw bln ini,,tar aja october ktnya.. ato maw k bali lg y?? mmm jd binun!

Dah gt menjelang sore gw dpt SMS gto dr someone yg entah knp tambah bikin gw beute n ilfill stgh metong! Tu org mawnya apa seh cong?? Malleeessshhhh deh... agghh let it flow aja kaleee slowly but sure..hyyaaahhh makin g jelas......sabodo dia maw ngapain.. hhhhiiiihhhh tp teuteup gw rada ilfill!!! iiYaaaccckkkk.... hehehehehehe... tapi demen bo gw tanggepin...hiahahahaha...

Jadi lsg terinspirasi deh gw bikin kata2 ini :

Every time I'm making love with you                                            
Kind of makes me feel like I hate you
Every time I'm lying in your arms
I try to ignore you but I can't.

I'm not alone
But I am lonely
I'm insatiable and I can't get enough                                          
Boy, you know I'm only
Sick with love

Every time I'm making love with youKind of makes me feel like I hate youI'm not aloneBut I am lonelyIt’s a deep grouted fear that I can't rise aboveBoy, you know I'm only 

Sick with love

-----> mmm ato jd suck of love kali yeeee..... yyyuuuu aagghhh maarreeeee!!!!! eh tapi tapi... stuck with love gmn???            

Ayo Chang,Ching,Chung,,,,,chayoooo!!!!! ^o^